Healed by the Moment
I was drenched in love today: exhilarating love. Looks and hugs and kisses I want to keep forever within me. My deepest pain, my dark spot was polished and shining. I watched them as they play and dance with freedom. I was happy yet envious of their closeness to freedom: the freedom I covet daily. The freedom I long to hold so close to my heart- freedom of being me.
It was a reminder of how much I missed being with them, while they are with me – a relic of beautiful moment buried deep in my soul. I had to search within me to remember. A shameful reminder of my responsibility of fatherhood.
Too focused with their and my studies, too focused in ‘being successful’, I had started to repeat a saga I abandoned on purpose. A saga of fatherless child, who begrudged his neighbors’ family…
But today, at the park I was healed by a moment I will cherish forever… I saw in their eyes how much they have missed me. I felt deep in my soul how much I miss them. I felt my love to them – a love I can never feel for anyone else. I realized although we live together, we see each other daily, moments like this are precious, unique and irreplaceable.